YES, finnallyyy~

finally i have managed to leave everything behind!
and move forward for better and happier days!
thx to my good friends who cared for me,
shu lyn, liza and christina..
and MORE THANKS TO my "real" friends!
hahahahaah!!
i finally realised,
its time to leave it all behind!
and YES i DID!
heheh..

next.. i wish to dedicate this lil thing to penguin heheh..


Even if the sun refused to shine,
Even if romance ran out of rhyme,
You would still hv my heart until the end of time,
Cause you're all i need.
You've opened my eyes,
And shown me to love unselfishly..

do i actually belong here...?


i know everyone have their hard times,
some unspeakable, unsolvable, unknown.
yes, mine is one of those..
i barely know why i feel down at times,
or what causes me to be like that,
although i crave, CRAVE to know..


i feel very lonely...
nobody understands me!
nobody KNOWS me!
nobody want to care bout me!
nobody treats me as their good friend!
all they know,
is to care bout themselves,
and their other friends..
i just wanna know,
why am i always the one left out!!


i seem happy and jolly.
but have u ever heard of "dont judge a book by its cover"?
i feel like my soul have been ripped apart,
though my life is still whole,
but my feelings tell me,
theres no reason for me
to be here anymore,
cause no one awaits me,
nobody cares bout me..

at most times,
im demanding, im bossy,
im unfriendly, not understanding..
but who's perfect??
everybody has their own weaknesses!
i do understand that i hv more weaknesses than others,
im trying... to change it..
give me more time...
and more space to breath..
cant you??

i duwanna go to school... cause i feel so miserable when im in school.. seeing things that only hurt my eyes... and listening to things that'll only break my heart.. i'm fed up of it.. i've had enough of it already.. i do not want to take it anymore!!!
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actually i relly tot u understood me, but no.. its not true..
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Deep inside your heart and soul
You've worked so hard
To reach your goal
With every step
With every breath
You gave it all
Till there was nothing left
Seek out the strength to win
No thoughts of giving in
Go higher and higher...

d0 we ReaLLy staND aLonE in thiS wORlD?!

Please tell me.. when only will i get you to understand how it feels?? It has been my fault, i didnt tell u that it concerned of u, but it's cause i dont know how to.. i am afraid u will avoid me, if i tell you.. i have given you clues, but u just DONT get it!! but do u relllyy relllyyy know i reaallyyy neeeed somebody to share it with??!!

I have enough of all these, i'm going through too much already. i already have a lot on my plate.. please do not pressure me anymore.. but i relly want u.. i relly wanna be with u oni.. i dont ask for more.. just seeing and talking to u everyday, i already feel happy.. cause its all i ask for, that is i just wanna talk to u.. as a really good friend..

This is only to you.. n nobody knows who are u, except me...


TO CHRISTINA

i know u're going through a lot now,
and although i dun relly know wat isit,
i believe i can feel the pain and pressure,
that u're going through,
remember that i'll always be with you,
although physically, im not there,
but my heart and faith,
is always with you!
And i strongly believe,
that God will be with you everytime,
EVERTIME!!

Be strong, be tough,
you'll get through all these,
with the help of God, your family, and your friends,
when u stand together,
u stand firmly,
against anything that'll come,
that's called LOVE!


from -mE-
= irritatin' gal =